I really miss my happy days

In this times, I don't know what emotion should I have because I don't feel anything anymore except for being sad, lazy,and upset for everything I do. It's just that everyone in my surroundings see me as a failure or useless even though I tried my best. I can't deal with myself or anyone because I don't really know where should I start or where can I have that happiness again.

My mother always see my mistakes as a massive obstacle to her. I have no idea why she doesn't like me or what. But I always noticed it compared to my youngest brother whom she favors a lot.
If someone makes you down it so annoying and frustrating but when it is one of your family members, it's depressing. 😔