Feeling bad

Idk why y feel something in my chest when someone is closer than me with some friends, specific friends, idk what to do bc I don't want to start something I can't really control later like a relationship but I really want them w me, idk why but I just don't want them to go away bc of my feelings. Plus I start getting in a bad emotional state because of what I "feel?" about my friends, they are two people but, at the same time I really want them with me I really want to stop everything because I know I'm too bad at affective responsability, I don't really know what to do, I just want to get a friend who I don't end affected emotionaly because my overthinking, I really just want someone with me rn :((😞