Social Anxiety

I almost had a anxiety attack at the mall today. I was with my parents to shop for my birthday. I have a very hard time shopping since my parents are very judgmental of my fashion sense. They would keep offering me clothes that’d they prefer me to wear knowing well I wouldn’t. I got very nervous and was scared to say no. I picked out some clothes that I knew they would like but I would never wear. I constantly do things for my parents to approve of me. They swarmed me a lot when shopping and I started tearing up. When we were walking out the store, we were walking and had a difficult time passing through some people. My mom was walking away from me when she knows I desperately need company so I don’t freak out. I worry when I’m near people cause I’m scared of them judging me. When we entered the new store I was losing breath and I started crying. My mom helped me but I still can’t get this moment out of my head. Going anywhere outside is stressful and I think everything is gonna turn out bad at some point. I’m agoraphobic as well so this was terrible. I’m going to an event tomorrow with my family and I’m scared what will happen next.