I don't even know anymore

I am not alright.
I don't know what I want until I was at the edge of the bridge.
I wanted to jump, Wanted to fly high..
Why didn't I jump?
What should I do?.
I can’t do this anymore.
I don't want to go to the hospital.
It's not going to help.
I need to be away from everything,
The thought of suicide is eating me inside out.
I want to do it so bad..
I have so many problems..
Who should I talk to?.