Im wasting my young years

Im scared,im scared because i know im wasting my life and im sick od it. Im Always isolated from People and i hate it. People think im na introvert but im acually just scared to ask someone to hangout because i think they whil think im annoying. Im starting to want to kill myself again because i don't see the Point of my life anymore if im just going to waste it. The only reason i didnt try to kill myself is because im hopeing life Whil get more exiteing and fun when im older. But i get so sad everytime i see someone my age having fun. Im just waiting for time to pass but im scared od the future at the same time. Thank you for listening, and sorry for bad english, its not my mother language🙂