Dad's and family problems
Okay, so usually my dad is the chill one of my parents, my mom's the screamer, the one you have to walk on eggshells around, the one who makes rude or uncomfortable comments, the one I will be going no contact with, etc. And my dad's usually the sort of supportive and kinda understanding one. But today he just straight up called me fat. This has been happening a lot where he just makes snide comments on my image like "I don't think you should have worn that out" " you really do need exercise" " join me at soccer club, you need it." Or something like that where it can be seen as mean but in some cases, at least I took it as, a misunderstanding and just odd wording. Until today where I just finished brushing my youngest siblings hair and walk over to him (I'm only in shorts and a sports bra cause it's comfy) and he squeezes my stomach and says, looking from my stomach to me, " you really should exircise more." And I, kinda playfully cause I'm in a bit of shock, say "are you calling me fat?" And he responds with " well I wasn't the one that said it."
I'm already extremely self conscious although I'm much better then I used to be, I have multiple mental health issues that he is aware of including (TW)
Self harm and suicidal thoughts, alot of it originating from my looks and my realtoonship with my mom.
I just can't deal with not having a support system, my oldest sibling hates me and is an asshole, my second oldest is the same way but we tolerate each other and the two youngest are first of all younger then me so I don't want them to have to support their older sibling and second of all, are slowly but surely getting into the snobby little bart stage.
My mother is a no-go, and I thought I could at least somewhat turn to my dad for less extreme things but clearly he doesn't understand how to reel himself in.
I have a girlfriend and I couple other close friends but I don't want to be that person that uses other people that shouldn't need to deal with my shit as therapist.
Idk. I just feel like I have no true support or people to go to. But on the other side maybe I'm just overwhelmed and over reacting.
I'm already extremely self conscious although I'm much better then I used to be, I have multiple mental health issues that he is aware of including (TW)
Self harm and suicidal thoughts, alot of it originating from my looks and my realtoonship with my mom.
I just can't deal with not having a support system, my oldest sibling hates me and is an asshole, my second oldest is the same way but we tolerate each other and the two youngest are first of all younger then me so I don't want them to have to support their older sibling and second of all, are slowly but surely getting into the snobby little bart stage.
My mother is a no-go, and I thought I could at least somewhat turn to my dad for less extreme things but clearly he doesn't understand how to reel himself in.
I have a girlfriend and I couple other close friends but I don't want to be that person that uses other people that shouldn't need to deal with my shit as therapist.
Idk. I just feel like I have no true support or people to go to. But on the other side maybe I'm just overwhelmed and over reacting.
16-17, T