It kinda sounds like you have an unhealthy relationship with food. I have issues with food now as well but for probably an entirely different reason. I was diagnosed with gastroparesis in October last year and eating has been a struggle ever since. I kinda blame myself for it because if I wouldn't have been comfort-eating for so long through depression I would not have needed the gastric bypass surgery years ago. I am not certain what your issue is but a good suggestion might be instead of binge eating and going so long without food to eat smaller amounts more often and see if that helps a bit. This is a hard struggle and I am so sorry you are struggling but I am right there with you. Good Luck.
