I'm I A Bad Person?
I don't know why but every time one of my friends get a boyfriend or start talking to a guy i'm jealous
i ask myself every time why i'm i not good enough?
I'm i too ugly?
I'm i boring?
There was this boy i was close friends with and he said he was gonna rate me and my friend my friend got a 9 and i got a 7.5, i wasn't bothered by it cause everyone thought my friend was really pretty so i don't blame him. So yesterday we had a small argument but i was joking and then all of a sudden he says "i was lying when i said you were a seven" he didn't say it in a good way he said in a very cold and honest voice and he also said "you're gonna go home now and cry about it aren't you?
I tried to not cry and i replied to him" you think i care?"
but i did care i cared alot that rn im sitting in my bed going over and over what he said
it hurts cause i don't think i was in the right mentallity to hear that and i think he knows.
I'm not ok...
i try my hardest to be a girl i'm not
but actually im depressed and tired of living
i ask myself every time why i'm i not good enough?
I'm i too ugly?
I'm i boring?
There was this boy i was close friends with and he said he was gonna rate me and my friend my friend got a 9 and i got a 7.5, i wasn't bothered by it cause everyone thought my friend was really pretty so i don't blame him. So yesterday we had a small argument but i was joking and then all of a sudden he says "i was lying when i said you were a seven" he didn't say it in a good way he said in a very cold and honest voice and he also said "you're gonna go home now and cry about it aren't you?
I tried to not cry and i replied to him" you think i care?"
but i did care i cared alot that rn im sitting in my bed going over and over what he said
it hurts cause i don't think i was in the right mentallity to hear that and i think he knows.
I'm not ok...
i try my hardest to be a girl i'm not
but actually im depressed and tired of living
36-40, F
