Things arent right

I honestly dont know where to start at this point. Lifes been falling apart. im losing my best friend and i have zero idea what to do. people are stressing me out and my mom makes me feel like shit. shes looked me in the eyes more than once and has said "i hate you". i love my mom, lots, shes amazing. i think she hates me tho. she doesnt act like she loves me, thats alright. my dad left last month and shes been blaming me for the whole thing, idk what to do. ive been to countless mental hospitals and here i am typing this out on my bed at 4am. life hasnt been right recently and ive been told that suicide is the answer to my problems by serveral people. maybe all of them are right, maybe it's what i need to do in order to fix everything. Whatever though, im just another kid, there wouldnt be that much difference if i did.