I miss him bro

If he hurt you numerous times, why do you expect different results if you got back with him? This is not what a friend does. When people do this to you, you have to accept they are not emotionally available. You'd only be hurting yourself to go back. And he won't respect you for accepting his kind of abusive behavior. You'll only get more of the same or worse. Love and respect yourself enough to find someone who actually knows how to treat you the way you deserve. Sometimes what we're "missing" is not the person, but what we THOUGHT we had.

Call him.