it's too much...

Lately i've been feeling like shit, I'm getting into fights with my best friend and my gf just broke up with me. it feels like the only person who cares about me is my younger sister. but i feel like lately i can't find a reason to stay alive. i have high level of social anxiety and i feel like shit when i'm at school. my grades are horrible and i feel like I'm absolutely useless. I'm supposed to be an art kid but i don't enjoy drawing and lately my art has been looking like shit, but i know that i can't go to a different school so I'm stuck with art school.