Littlep0nd · 18-21, F
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Mentionings of:
-suicide
-swearing
-bullying
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Ive wanted to die for a long time now and I’m the therapist friend and it’s too hard to handle I’ve been stuck with hallucinations of me hanging myself everyday and feel like I should’ve not existed I’ve tried to get help from a school professional but they almost ruined my life. I also feel like I just annoy all of my friends even tho ik that they like hanging out with me I still feel like a burden to them like level hinted to my friends that I feel like a burden but I don’t think they r getting the hint and another friend group my friend group likes to talk to always call me emo and things that I personally feel very insecure abt and my best friend of 3 years keeps calling me names like fatty when I am a bit over weight and she always brings my weight into everything if I as a joke like move something and inch away from her she calls me a fatty and always makes fun of me and I’ve never done anything wrong she’s also broken my glasses 4 times in a row as a “joke” when she knows that they r expensive and all she’s ever done is just make me feel like shit and made me want to kill myself she’s also one of the reasons why I’m suicidal. It’s hard being friends with her bc my friend group never gets to do what we want bc of her if we r talking baby something she’ll change the topic and start talking abt herself and what she does and if we’re doing something she makes us do what she wants us to do and if we try to tell her we r already doing something she shouts at us and hits us very hard I’ve tried to tell her and she’s hit me before and many of us have tried and all she does is hit us and shout she never lets us do what we want then when we r around other ppl she acts like she’s never done anything wrong ever and it’s all bullshit I wish she’d just stop being so rude and self centred and when I told her abt my suicidal thought she brushed what I told her away and started talking abt herself and it’s rlly annoying. I’m thinking of leaving her but I’ve been very close to her for a long time and have been with her a lot and Idk if I should stay with her or not…
Mentionings of:
-suicide
-swearing
-bullying
If ur uncomfortable with any of this pls ignore it but if not then pls read this
Ive wanted to die for a long time now and I’m the therapist friend and it’s too hard to handle I’ve been stuck with hallucinations of me hanging myself everyday and feel like I should’ve not existed I’ve tried to get help from a school professional but they almost ruined my life. I also feel like I just annoy all of my friends even tho ik that they like hanging out with me I still feel like a burden to them like level hinted to my friends that I feel like a burden but I don’t think they r getting the hint and another friend group my friend group likes to talk to always call me emo and things that I personally feel very insecure abt and my best friend of 3 years keeps calling me names like fatty when I am a bit over weight and she always brings my weight into everything if I as a joke like move something and inch away from her she calls me a fatty and always makes fun of me and I’ve never done anything wrong she’s also broken my glasses 4 times in a row as a “joke” when she knows that they r expensive and all she’s ever done is just make me feel like shit and made me want to kill myself she’s also one of the reasons why I’m suicidal. It’s hard being friends with her bc my friend group never gets to do what we want bc of her if we r talking baby something she’ll change the topic and start talking abt herself and what she does and if we’re doing something she makes us do what she wants us to do and if we try to tell her we r already doing something she shouts at us and hits us very hard I’ve tried to tell her and she’s hit me before and many of us have tried and all she does is hit us and shout she never lets us do what we want then when we r around other ppl she acts like she’s never done anything wrong ever and it’s all bullshit I wish she’d just stop being so rude and self centred and when I told her abt my suicidal thought she brushed what I told her away and started talking abt herself and it’s rlly annoying. I’m thinking of leaving her but I’ve been very close to her for a long time and have been with her a lot and Idk if I should stay with her or not…
qxdjb · 18-21, F
@Littlep0nd damn man thats a lot, if u wanna talk just say so and ill add u somewhere where we could talk privately bc this sounds rly serious:/ i mean honestly id suggest u to just leave her, literally just stop talking w her, don't be near her and try to avoid her? i know it would probably be hard to confront her irl like that so maybe text her ab it, really think the message that ure gonna send her through. if shes really as bad as u say she is then if u dont leave now ure gonna regret it in the future. i used to be in a similar situation w someone who was abusive in a way, the way i left that relationship behind was that i literally just walked away, acted as if we never even had a relationship and ignore them. idk if thats the best way to leave but it worked for me lol..later the person confronted me through insta and basically i explained everything and the person got mad but i really didnt care and kept on pretending that we were never friends and really my life after that was a lot better. and alsoo the abusive person was also friends with me for like 5 years but they progressively started treating me worse and worse so, even though i didnt want to leave, i had to and so should u!!!!
You're so much like myself. I have only one "friend" like that. I should say, "had". I have done the exact same and am going through the same feelings...until a couple minutes ago. We don't want to hurt anyone, as we love helping people, but today, I finally politely told this person, no, though I didn't like it nor want to have to do it. But there comes a point where you must not allow people to hold you emotionally hostage or responsible for their feelings or happiness. This is emotional blackmail and she knows exactly what she's doing. They know exactly what strings to pull, to make you feel guilty if you don't comply.
Tell yourself the truth. And that is....if this person had any feelings for you at all, she wouldn't put you through all this at YOUR EXPENSE, and when we love ourselves, we don't allow people to use us. Don't you worry. She'll survive. She just wants you to think she won't, and the longer you baby and enable her, she'll never break out of her shell nor grow up. She'll never learn to be self-sufficient nor responsible. She obviously doesn't have any problem ruining your day with her hefty demands, though she knows you have your own life to live and fight depression, yourself. It's definitely time to cut the cord, and I'm glad I did the same, today. When it affects your own wellbeing and sanity, it's definitely time to sever that "relationship" for your own good and health! Honey, this is NO FRIEND. It really IS too much. Completely cut the cord...all contact, and I mean ALL.
I promise...these type people are selfish and one way or another, they make sure they find their next victim. I am much relieved to be one less! You need to take care of you, first. That's not being selfish. That's just good common sense. Friendship is a two-way street. There's times WE need to vent, as well!
Tell yourself the truth. And that is....if this person had any feelings for you at all, she wouldn't put you through all this at YOUR EXPENSE, and when we love ourselves, we don't allow people to use us. Don't you worry. She'll survive. She just wants you to think she won't, and the longer you baby and enable her, she'll never break out of her shell nor grow up. She'll never learn to be self-sufficient nor responsible. She obviously doesn't have any problem ruining your day with her hefty demands, though she knows you have your own life to live and fight depression, yourself. It's definitely time to cut the cord, and I'm glad I did the same, today. When it affects your own wellbeing and sanity, it's definitely time to sever that "relationship" for your own good and health! Honey, this is NO FRIEND. It really IS too much. Completely cut the cord...all contact, and I mean ALL.
I promise...these type people are selfish and one way or another, they make sure they find their next victim. I am much relieved to be one less! You need to take care of you, first. That's not being selfish. That's just good common sense. Friendship is a two-way street. There's times WE need to vent, as well!
qxdjb · 18-21, F
@LadyGrace proud of u for saying no!! and i know ure right, she is a very selfish and jealous person in general..i think i will actually leave her when i move schools. i dont want anyone depending on me like that or expecting me to sacrifice my own wellbeing for their own. thank u for the advice!!
@qxdjb I'm so proud of you for making that decision. If you continue to hang around her til you switch schools, just don't let her take advantage of you in any regard. Stand convicted and firm. You'll see her true self come out real quick and if you don't give in, she just may eventually move on to find a new victim. She won't want to do without. I feel so happy and free since I took that necessary step. I wasn't going to put up with her, one more minute. The stress that was lifted, was well worth it. We can still love and help people, but people respect others more, when they know they have certain ways and boundaries, others can't cross. We teach people how we want to be treated, by what we do, or don't, allow.
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@HannibalMontanimal That's rather what I wanted to say but I was trying to be (it makes a change for me 😆😉) "diplomatic"....😉 But, yeah, you got it 👌