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i have this one friend and we've been friends for 6 years now, we're very close and talk every day. i like being friends with her but the problem is -shes too dependent on me to the point where she cant really do anything without me or go a few hours without constantly texting me. i mean i kind of get it because she does have social anxiety so she's too scared to look for more friends, im also her only friend bc of that reason. i even offered that i would help her, i would find friends along with her and approach ppl while she could be by my side, but still no. she says im the only friend she needs, which is nice, however i feel like she doesnt give me space bc shes the type of person that NEEDS to share ab her day with someone or mention every single detail that happens to her that day, so often i just leave her on delivered bc 1. its really too many messages every day and 2. i have bad depression and tend to really isolate myself during these depressive episodes. it leaves me feeling guilty for not paying enough attention to her, she becomes sad when i dont respond. i respond to her like every 2 hours, i try to but its a lot for me. she doesnt really go out unless its with me.

but what really concerns me is that im not a good influence. due to my depression i have missed a lot of my classes, basically im gonna fail this year. so im planning on just leaving this school and for next year having online school, that way i would have enough time to work on myself and also on school. but, because i was so absent at school (we go to school together), she started skipping too. she doesnt want to be at school alone which is totally understandable, however it really makes me feel really guilty. i have thought of leaving her bc i felt so bad of constantly disappointing her by not giving her attention all the time - i think a different person who's more clingy like her would make a better friend for her specifically. but just leaving her alone for one day is enough to make her have a whole breakdown so im not sure how'd she handle me leaving.

another thing i also kind of feel used by her, im her number 1 emotional support, aleays ready to hear or comfort her. i dont really mind that but when its me who needs to vent just a little she changes the topic immediately and the focus is back on her. and financially used by her as well. im the kind of person who will buy u a meal if u dont have money and wont expect u to pay back, so she really uses that. again, i wpuldnt really mind it if she at least thanked me or said please, when we're in a store she just chooses whatever food she wants, without asking me to pay for her, and then at the cashier she gives me the stuff that she picked so i could pay for all that. its not an insane amount of money but doing that almost every day its a lot. so by the end i just feel used. i even told her to at least thank me or something but she only does when i tell her to, never by herself. i know i should be more assertive in this situation but i feel bad to say no with the food as she doesnt have a lot of money and doesnt eat unless someone buys her her favorite food bc shes a picky eater.

soo not sure what to do with her bc if i left she would probably feel miserable:( and i really enjoy her company and everything but its just..too much
LadyGrace · 70-79
You're so much like myself. I have only one "friend" like that. I should say, "had". I have done the exact same and am going through the same feelings...until a couple minutes ago. We don't want to hurt anyone, as we love helping people, but today, I finally politely told this person, no, though I didn't like it nor want to have to do it. But there comes a point where you must not allow people to hold you emotionally hostage or responsible for their feelings or happiness. This is emotional blackmail and she knows exactly what she's doing. They know exactly what strings to pull, to make you feel guilty if you don't comply.

Tell yourself the truth. And that is....if this person had any feelings for you at all, she wouldn't put you through all this at YOUR EXPENSE, and when we love ourselves, we don't allow people to use us. Don't you worry. She'll survive. She just wants you to think she won't, and the longer you baby and enable her, she'll never break out of her shell nor grow up. She'll never learn to be self-sufficient nor responsible. She obviously doesn't have any problem ruining your day with her hefty demands, though she knows you have your own life to live and fight depression, yourself. It's definitely time to cut the cord, and I'm glad I did the same, today. When it affects your own wellbeing and sanity, it's definitely time to sever that "relationship" for your own good and health! Honey, this is NO FRIEND. It really IS too much. Completely cut the cord...all contact, and I mean ALL.

I promise...these type people are selfish and one way or another, they make sure they find their next victim. I am much relieved to be one less! You need to take care of you, first. That's not being selfish. That's just good common sense. Friendship is a two-way street. There's times WE need to vent, as well!
qxdjb · 18-21, F
@LadyGrace proud of u for saying no!! and i know ure right, she is a very selfish and jealous person in general..i think i will actually leave her when i move schools. i dont want anyone depending on me like that or expecting me to sacrifice my own wellbeing for their own. thank u for the advice!!
LadyGrace · 70-79
@qxdjb I'm so proud of you for making that decision. If you continue to hang around her til you switch schools, just don't let her take advantage of you in any regard. Stand convicted and firm. You'll see her true self come out real quick and if you don't give in, she just may eventually move on to find a new victim. She won't want to do without. I feel so happy and free since I took that necessary step. I wasn't going to put up with her, one more minute. The stress that was lifted, was well worth it. We can still love and help people, but people respect others more, when they know they have certain ways and boundaries, others can't cross. We teach people how we want to be treated, by what we do, or don't, allow.
Littlep0nd · 18-21, F
TRIGGER WARNING

Mentionings of:
-suicide
-swearing
-bullying

If ur uncomfortable with any of this pls ignore it but if not then pls read this









Ive wanted to die for a long time now and I’m the therapist friend and it’s too hard to handle I’ve been stuck with hallucinations of me hanging myself everyday and feel like I should’ve not existed I’ve tried to get help from a school professional but they almost ruined my life. I also feel like I just annoy all of my friends even tho ik that they like hanging out with me I still feel like a burden to them like level hinted to my friends that I feel like a burden but I don’t think they r getting the hint and another friend group my friend group likes to talk to always call me emo and things that I personally feel very insecure abt and my best friend of 3 years keeps calling me names like fatty when I am a bit over weight and she always brings my weight into everything if I as a joke like move something and inch away from her she calls me a fatty and always makes fun of me and I’ve never done anything wrong she’s also broken my glasses 4 times in a row as a “joke” when she knows that they r expensive and all she’s ever done is just make me feel like shit and made me want to kill myself she’s also one of the reasons why I’m suicidal. It’s hard being friends with her bc my friend group never gets to do what we want bc of her if we r talking baby something she’ll change the topic and start talking abt herself and what she does and if we’re doing something she makes us do what she wants us to do and if we try to tell her we r already doing something she shouts at us and hits us very hard I’ve tried to tell her and she’s hit me before and many of us have tried and all she does is hit us and shout she never lets us do what we want then when we r around other ppl she acts like she’s never done anything wrong ever and it’s all bullshit I wish she’d just stop being so rude and self centred and when I told her abt my suicidal thought she brushed what I told her away and started talking abt herself and it’s rlly annoying. I’m thinking of leaving her but I’ve been very close to her for a long time and have been with her a lot and Idk if I should stay with her or not…
qxdjb · 18-21, F
@Littlep0nd damn man thats a lot, if u wanna talk just say so and ill add u somewhere where we could talk privately bc this sounds rly serious:/ i mean honestly id suggest u to just leave her, literally just stop talking w her, don't be near her and try to avoid her? i know it would probably be hard to confront her irl like that so maybe text her ab it, really think the message that ure gonna send her through. if shes really as bad as u say she is then if u dont leave now ure gonna regret it in the future. i used to be in a similar situation w someone who was abusive in a way, the way i left that relationship behind was that i literally just walked away, acted as if we never even had a relationship and ignore them. idk if thats the best way to leave but it worked for me lol..later the person confronted me through insta and basically i explained everything and the person got mad but i really didnt care and kept on pretending that we were never friends and really my life after that was a lot better. and alsoo the abusive person was also friends with me for like 5 years but they progressively started treating me worse and worse so, even though i didnt want to leave, i had to and so should u!!!!
Fluffybull · F
I think she needs to find other people/counsellors etc to help her as it's not good for her to depend on you so much. Also not good for you especially as you have your own issues.
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Fluffybull · F
@MURD3RM0NK3Y That's rather what I wanted to say but I was trying to be (it makes a change for me 😆😉) "diplomatic"....😉 But, yeah, you got it 👌

 
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