vent tw: sh

i love my boyfriend but he's so fucking mean to me sometimes it makes me mad. and then he has the nerve to get mad at me or sad because I'm being negative when he's literally the reason I'm negative most of the times. he flirts with random people on social media and he tries to justify it by saying it's a joke and then he gets all mad because I think he's gonna cheat on me. im so sad i literally want to cut myself so bad and rip my hair out or something. sometimes he literally treats other people better than me, I'm sick of this i can't even go on instagram or other social media apps we talk on because he makes me so anxious, i never know when he's in a bad mood or when he's going to make me overthink again.