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so uhm...can i just say shit that was on my mind?
First I hope that anyone who gets bullied/doesn't get treated well to be brave and face their problems one by one.

And now I'll start..There is sm that i don't know where to begin...anyway.
It was 7-8 years ago,when i was 7(im soon 15).
I was playing outside with my 5 year old friend(she's also my cousin from dads side,plus was my neighbour) and my 6 year old friend. It was all fine. A nice day in summer. We were playing with my toys in the garden. After some time,me and my 6 y/o friend go to look for our 5 y/o friend. We had found her and decided to go back in my garden to play right? By the time we got back,my dad has put my toys on fire. He said it was becouse "i didn't clean up the toys after finishing with playing"..we hadn't even finished playing. After,he tried to hit my younger sister. Alot has happend and now my parents divorced. Thats a bit of the background(the flash back i had)
To the point now

I feel like the bad/traumatizing things that happend before didn't actually happen,I feel like I've just made it up in my brain. I can't tell the difference between my past and my made up shit. I don't know how i feel anymore..

Im sorry about whatever your going through... Im sure u need a sim and yes u can buy airtime or data by a shop