help me bro

Bro i want to kms rn i actually give up on life, i know it sounds dumb but i got my phone taken off like a year ago and its never been the same, i NEED it back, i lost all my friends everything, i cant even meet them up, so inlike march last yeari had drama w one of my friends and i got introuble with the police and then my dad took my phone off me for 6 months, i asked himfor it back he gave ut and said he trusts me, it was all good untill i stopped coming downstairs and hangijg out with him and mym mum and started to hang out with mates so he saw less of me so he got mad ect and he kept taking jt off me so he can have me all to himself and my mum. later on in august he gave it back to me cause it was the 6weeks and after that he started taking it, sooner he gave it back, then took it off me and it was a never ending cycle! im 14 right now so i have to wait 18 years to leave ive had enough, ik i said he kept giging jt back but he hasnt since december andits may right now! i feel depressed bro i cant lisen to my smusic on my airpods ect, i cant tak to mates, no nothing! i cant do ANYTHING anymore i wanna die at this point no one listens to me j came here cause im unheard of. what u think of doing right now is just restarting my phone (he changed the password) and running away for some time so they know how badly they affecfed me but idk where to run away because i dont wanna burden my friends. im thinking of leaging for like 3 days i dont know . please someone answer im desperate, does anyone know how to restart my phone without a password its an iphone 11 and how to set up mobile data like is it online or what and a phone number that wont cost money ect, please im desperate.