are friends a waste of time?

honestly i dont even know if i have friends anymore. we just talk at school ocassionally. when theyre bored or need something. i used to check up on them a lot and still do but not so much. but it just hurts when i remember they never but never in their entire life asked me "are you okay?' well,no im not okay but i would be if at least one of them would be there for me, by my side, o matter what. though... i feel like friends are such a waste of time sometimes and it does't matter if you do have or do not, but i'm still young to decide that so i'll guess i'll stick to this for now.