Meep meep meep [I Want to Vent]

I just want to throw my phone until it breaks, cut off contact to anyone, it's exhausting being human and being alive. I want to move far away with my memories erased, forget people that have scarred me. I miss the good ol days when i didnt have to contact anyone, use a phone, have responsibilities and be a functional member of society. I have watched a documentary on japanese people just vanishing wihtout a trace..i wish i could be like that. Just float like a bubble and pop. With my ecistence erased. I just want people to forget me, not know if i was alive or dead. Be in the mountains and just live off whatever.i used to forget that i have a phone because i never had the need to contact anyone, until i had to keep in touch with my supervisors, earn for a diploma so i can get what my parents call "a decent paying job" *sigh i just want to go back and redo my life choices