I Want to Vent

I feel full of despair. I flunked out of a great school and the reality that I probably will never go back is killing me. I'm at a community college trying to get an associates but I feel like I should be doing more. I don't ever tell my therapist how I really feel and I always feel bad when I get home and beat myself up. Im just not feeling like myself 😢 And I hate it.