Hey, I don't know if you wanted me to read this, but I'm here, I'm living this, in thinking these same thoughts in my own life. I want to give you that attention you desire, that genuine effort, to actually hear the words you say, to take them to heart & to value them.

I'm so sorry you feel as you do, that you've been dropped into the world socially inept, you have to become lively & eccentric for other people, you have to make jokes & entertain them, but with me, you could just talk, I don't know you in person, but just spending time together or doing things/experiencing things together, that would be enough.

I'm not trying to be all weird & push myself into your life, I just want to tell you I hear you, & that I could be a genuine person in your life, I would put in that effort.

Okay.

Fascinating. There's nothing negative about talking from the heart... I like sincerity. Sounds like you're just surrounded by shallow people, perhaps, or just people who don't get you. Well written and well expressed by the way, coherent and (oddly) out of the ordinary, original. I relate in some ways yes, although I can talk about everything. Yet, I rather enjoy company in silence, if that were possible... sounds nicer than just talking for hours. Nothing ridiculous, nothing to mock or to hate (why would anyone hate you for this?) It's not even negative: it's a positive thing you're speaking from the heart and let your feelings known. Be yourself, love yourself (why would you hate yourself? for being different? being different is awesome...)

I get it. I feel your pain. I'm very much an introvert and frequently have nothing in mind to talk about. That's why I randomly comment on things here. That usually leads to people who decided to message me asking a bunch of questions... which usually sparks some conversation... until they get bored and move on.

Why would you think your statement is negative?
You expressed the way you feel.
I have felt that way, but I have found with time -people like me, so I felt not alone each time I been with them.

Is this why I got that message from you? If so, I just thought you were bored and just making small talk.

There is a saying in my language:
[quote]If words are silver, then the silence is gold[/quote]

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