I Need to Vent

Get stuck in house
Live alone
Very depressed no one to talk to
Everyone's busy
Feel I can't leave the house
Have been thinking of cutting
Been feeling suicidal
Horrible relationship problems
Want to give up
Have half a bottle of wine on the table I am yet to touch
"Boyfreind" reluctantly made plans to have dinner with me tonight
Sandwiches I made that were supposed to be for the lunch we were supposed to have today
In the car because he doesn't want to go back to his caravan he's staying in right now
Maybe because he's protecting me from his new lover?

No real answers
All I am is alone and left alone
I want to cry and talk
There's no one to talk to and crying makes my eyes puffy