I Need to Vent

Get stuck in house
Live alone
Very depressed no one to talk to
Everyone's busy
Feel I can't leave the house
Have been thinking of cutting
Been feeling suicidal
Horrible relationship problems
Want to give up
Have half a bottle of wine on the table I am yet to touch
"Boyfreind" reluctantly made plans to have dinner with me tonight
Sandwiches I made that were supposed to be for the lunch we were supposed to have today
In the car because he doesn't want to go back to his caravan he's staying in right now
Maybe because he's protecting me from his new lover?

No real answers
All I am is alone and left alone
I want to cry and talk
There's no one to talk to and crying makes my eyes puffy

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thinkbigaboutlife · F

is everything ok?

bearinthebigbluehouse · 26-30, M

Not trying to sound like a dick but, did you even read what she said? l: Because I'd say she's pretty far from being "ok"

thinkbigaboutlife · F

it's my way of saying ''what is going on, i'm here".

bearinthebigbluehouse · 26-30, M

I think you could've worded it a bit better BUT I understand now. ʅʕ•ᴥ•ʔʃ

Isthisit · F

Hey I don't feel ok is why I thought I'd come online to talk to anyone. Have been feeling really suicidal
Know I can't just do that but want to very badly right now
Holding it off

Shutterbug · 56-60, M

@bearinthebigbluehouse: she worded it fine....

bearinthebigbluehouse · 26-30, M

@Shutterbug: ...... Fuck it, I'm too old for this...

Shutterbug · 56-60, M

@bearinthebigbluehouse: some times you need to tread gently...

Isthisit · F

@bearinthebigbluehouse: I am too your a baby!!!:)

Shutterbug · 56-60, M

@Isthisit: you are both babies!!! 😔

Isthisit · F

@Shutterbug: I would love you to say that to my "partner" he thinks he's right about everything and I'm just a stupid woman.

bearinthebigbluehouse · 26-30, M

@Isthisit: >calls me a baby
>your
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Shutterbug · 56-60, M

@Isthisit: if he doesn't appreciate you, and has another woman, he ain't even worth your tears. Tough call but might be your brightest path.

Isthisit · F

@Shutterbug: hey thanks. So true. Now all he needs to do is admit it without me wanting to ask. I'm not going to be ignored and played around on at the same time.

Shutterbug · 56-60, M

@Isthisit: You should be your priority. Do you have kids?

Isthisit · F

@Shutterbug: I have a 14 year old. I'm sorry I feel so messed up. He's living with his nana. He wanted to

Shutterbug · 56-60, M

@Isthisit: it's understandable that you are. But as I say I think you need to make plans and start a new chapter.

here, we will talk to you. We might not make sense at times, some of us will make jokes, some I'll be sleep deprived, but we are sort of normal. :)

Isthisit · F

@Shutterbug: hey thanks I know from ep what the community is like. It's nice to have people to talk with and relate to. I wouldn't call myself normal at all!!:(

Shutterbug · 56-60, M

@Isthisit: you sound normal fir here. :)[image deleted]