I Need to Vent

I seriously just want to get rid of this baby it is causing me to have such crazy thoughts. Thought such as dropping off on a doorstep or starving myself or heavy drinking until an abortion happens or throwing myself down some stairs. Is so stupid how much they cost to have an abortion that is and then sometimes they want you to have counseling to discourage you from having one in the first place I mean come on I am here to have an abortion that is why this place exists and this is what you do. Why are you trying to discourage people from using your service I don't understand that. We are here because we don't want a baby.

I am just becoming more and more crazy each day. Time is just not on my side and nothing is seeming to work for me and I'm just going to lose it