I Need to Vent
I feel like I'm trying to piece it together...
I'm angry.. I'm upset because I feel like I hit a breakthrough.. And right as the idea had begun to form..
It was near instantly thrown off course...
I'm livid about it on the inside.. I feel like I'm self drunk.. Self intoxicated from the emotions...
I feel like I just need to talk about it... Somehow calm down.. Somehow reattain that focus that bloomed and died too quickly..
I was finally happy.. Not more than five minutes it seems.. But still... Happy... I just feel like I have bad luck or something.. I couldn't have predicted that outcome...
Idk, nothing could have prevented it.. That bizarre, almost wicked and sinister timing...
It's annoying.. I'm frustrated that the domino effect of random events occurred like that...
I don't know where to put my energy... When things turn out this way.. I guess all I can do is just live with this negativity.. This self suffocating ire... And maybe I'll get lucky in my sleep.. Maybe a dream can relieve me of it all..
I'm angry.. I'm upset because I feel like I hit a breakthrough.. And right as the idea had begun to form..
It was near instantly thrown off course...
I'm livid about it on the inside.. I feel like I'm self drunk.. Self intoxicated from the emotions...
I feel like I just need to talk about it... Somehow calm down.. Somehow reattain that focus that bloomed and died too quickly..
I was finally happy.. Not more than five minutes it seems.. But still... Happy... I just feel like I have bad luck or something.. I couldn't have predicted that outcome...
Idk, nothing could have prevented it.. That bizarre, almost wicked and sinister timing...
It's annoying.. I'm frustrated that the domino effect of random events occurred like that...
I don't know where to put my energy... When things turn out this way.. I guess all I can do is just live with this negativity.. This self suffocating ire... And maybe I'll get lucky in my sleep.. Maybe a dream can relieve me of it all..
