I Need to Vent

Its two weeks the baby has been home and I still cant assemble any of the things he needs, i am stressing out and crying non stop, i dont like not being able to do things. I just feel so sad that my baby can't have a proper bed and a stroller to go around in, im still struggling with the carseat straps😭. Inside my blood is boiling and i am burning in anger and hatrid all over something so simple. I know its not normal to be this upset...but i am😭 and to make matters worse its not my first child its my...third!!! I just dont remember being this upset and frustrated over trying to assemble things for baby, ive done this before in one day and under a few hours or so, with a stoller a bassinet a swing and some other stuff(my kids dad doesnt know how to do anything, and he never did and doesnt recognize assembling things as his job) i got so fed up with with the way he was treating me i went out and had an affair and got pregnant but the other guy is miles away and is about as useless as the one i already have,being so far away never once in the two weeks tried or mentioned seeing his child. So its whatever all i have is me, it wouldve been nice since assembling and fixing things is what he does for a living but he cant do a thing for me. I don't remember lacking patience to this degree and it taking this long and i was a teenager doing the same thing, i got a little frustrated if i couldnt figure something out but it was within normal limits. Now im just ready to explode