I Am Just Venting
You're inside a room it's a clam looking room with a couple people
it's created for support and a feeling of warmth.
Instead of feeling the warmth, i always notice the coldness in peoples eyes
or the reason why the guy called Dan is tapping his fingers on the table
and why the person beside him is laughing at things he doesn't even actually find funny.
I wish i could reach out to Dan who is probably in a unconscious forum wanting someone
to tell him the reason why he is tapping his fingers on the table.
But i can't.
Because one sentence and it's like individual pop's of fire works
people in the room unrelated to the now "Addressed issue" will start assuming
or feeling defensive for possible several reasons as a natural human response.
Or, the room will be put into silence while they question the everything mentioned
or feel uncomfortable about the bluntness of the situation depending on their personality's and actions.
And our friend Dan?
He'll be no different from the others
similar feelings but likely more uncomfortable due to him being in the now center of attention. It's even more possible to go as far as to say he may leave, or not return.
I? may even be booted, or told I've done "Wrong" that's the curse of being who i am
able to do what i can because someone like me is supposed to be like everyone else
even inside a room created for "Support" even inside daily life and that's part of the reasons as to why i consider it ironic the rest you can probably figure out on your own that is if that's something you're interested in doing.
I only wish
i could be among people like myself
and there are only so many i can find in this world so it tends to feel empty
and my own feelings? well, you where more curious about the others maybe some of you
about me, some of you. Either way i never found myself of much importance i just hate
who i am because doing all of this tends to ware me down and bother me.
it's created for support and a feeling of warmth.
Instead of feeling the warmth, i always notice the coldness in peoples eyes
or the reason why the guy called Dan is tapping his fingers on the table
and why the person beside him is laughing at things he doesn't even actually find funny.
I wish i could reach out to Dan who is probably in a unconscious forum wanting someone
to tell him the reason why he is tapping his fingers on the table.
But i can't.
Because one sentence and it's like individual pop's of fire works
people in the room unrelated to the now "Addressed issue" will start assuming
or feeling defensive for possible several reasons as a natural human response.
Or, the room will be put into silence while they question the everything mentioned
or feel uncomfortable about the bluntness of the situation depending on their personality's and actions.
And our friend Dan?
He'll be no different from the others
similar feelings but likely more uncomfortable due to him being in the now center of attention. It's even more possible to go as far as to say he may leave, or not return.
I? may even be booted, or told I've done "Wrong" that's the curse of being who i am
able to do what i can because someone like me is supposed to be like everyone else
even inside a room created for "Support" even inside daily life and that's part of the reasons as to why i consider it ironic the rest you can probably figure out on your own that is if that's something you're interested in doing.
I only wish
i could be among people like myself
and there are only so many i can find in this world so it tends to feel empty
and my own feelings? well, you where more curious about the others maybe some of you
about me, some of you. Either way i never found myself of much importance i just hate
who i am because doing all of this tends to ware me down and bother me.
