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Im so ashamed

So , theres a high chance Im neurodivergent (I cant get a diagnosis in the moment) and one of the symptoms that made me and my parents realize that maybe I am autistic is how I dont understand social norms sometimes . Its very selective, sometimes I act very normal , but sometimes its just embarrasing ,if it only made me look silly I wouldnt mind that much , what really sucks is when I end up being inconvenient to others . Yesterday was one of those days . So , we were just leaving college and we wait close to a cafeteria , I dont have close friends in college but I stayed close to some other girls , I standed near them said hi , and then we went to the cafeteria where the bus stops , I dont like this new point since now theres no place to sit unless we go and buy something there , and I we entered sat together and I heard them talk , we all ordered mini pizzas (who took very long to arrive) we and when we finished I was going to pay mine but then a girl said she already payed??
I think I missed something .Ugh I should have paid in the moment i ordered , I dont remember if the others paid for their own or if the same girl paid for them . In my mind we were just sitting and eating together ! I had no intention of eating for free ! I feel so ashamed , she must have felt obligated to pay for mine , imagine paying for someone you dont even know . When i found out she paid I offered my money but she refused . I had the money but I think didnt understood something and ended up being a burden . If they felt angry I didnt noticed but idk if I will be able to look at them again .
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robb65 · 56-60, M
Try not to stress over the pizza deal, she was probably just being nice.

I get where you are coming from, I was the kid who never quiet fit in. I'm probably "on the spectrum" somewhere but it wasn't as well understood back when I was growing up and so I was never diagnosed. I have nephew with autism, and other family members with adhd and I would bet if I were to be tested today I would have one or the other if not both. At least you're starting to figure it out while you are still young.
BlueVeins · 22-25
Did you thank her? It sounds like she was being kind. I bet she likes you.
rarityyy · 18-21New
@BlueVeins I did , but Idk if she liked me , I barely spoke at all
BlueVeins · 22-25
@rarityyy If you see her again, try and strike up a conversation, ok?
rarityyy · 18-21New
@BlueVeins I will try🙏 , what makes things worse is that apparently she isnt from my college but if i get to see her i will
Just because you’re socially awkward doesn’t mean you’re autistic
rarityyy · 18-21New
@Monaschandroff86 I have some other symptoms too , but autism or not , it sucks that I end up doing things like this
Normal people are not confident in every social situation.
rarityyy · 18-21New
@SomeMichGuy I know but awkward things that happens to me with frequency
@rarityyy So? Look at your age range. Welcome to normalcy.

 
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