Guess I'm upset..

My closest friend will be gone within a year, or less. His liver is failing, his wife told me his doctor said 8 months at best.

I'm getting used to losing people I love. People die every day, yet saying I'm used to it ... makes me think I'm getting colder and my heart is becoming like stone.

Guess the truth is, once he gone. I will miss the stupid conversations we have... the debates....

I don't think I'll be able to make a friend like him again. I mean, he moved next door to me twenty years ago and we just ...clicked. its hard making friends, it even harder to keep them...