Guys it's over
I finally went to the new school psychologist and oh well. It was good I guess except the fact that I almost came out crying from the office bruhhhhhhh
We just talked abt stuff, I told her about my studying problems n she just straight up said she can't help me with that. Oh! Alright i guess
Then we talked about other stuff and she said she doesn't think it's necessary for me to come again because it seems that I'm fine
Idk why, but I thought I would feel relieved. Yet upon hearing that sentence, it felt like someone literally stabbed me in the chest. It should've been like a "you don't need to come again, yay!" But it felt more like a "you're a lost cause, nothing can help you."
I felt terrible
I was fighting my tears
What's wrong with me? If I don't need help why do I feel like this? It doesn't even matter. Others have it worse. My friend has it worse. He literally goes every week bc the psychologist WANTS him to go. She diagnoses him and even gives him homework n shit.
Maybe I'm really just overreacting and I'm actually fine? My suicidal thoughts say otherwise though
I've been to 3 professionals at this point, none of them could help me, maybe this is just how it has to be, no? No one will understand or care enough to give me help. That's fine, I hate this word anyways. Now that I have no hope left, at least I won't have any regrets if I happen to "leave" this place
(But actually I feel terrible and just want to cry all day in my room rn but can't even do that since I'm forced to go to school and learn basically nothing)
We just talked abt stuff, I told her about my studying problems n she just straight up said she can't help me with that. Oh! Alright i guess
Then we talked about other stuff and she said she doesn't think it's necessary for me to come again because it seems that I'm fine
Idk why, but I thought I would feel relieved. Yet upon hearing that sentence, it felt like someone literally stabbed me in the chest. It should've been like a "you don't need to come again, yay!" But it felt more like a "you're a lost cause, nothing can help you."
I felt terrible
I was fighting my tears
What's wrong with me? If I don't need help why do I feel like this? It doesn't even matter. Others have it worse. My friend has it worse. He literally goes every week bc the psychologist WANTS him to go. She diagnoses him and even gives him homework n shit.
Maybe I'm really just overreacting and I'm actually fine? My suicidal thoughts say otherwise though
I've been to 3 professionals at this point, none of them could help me, maybe this is just how it has to be, no? No one will understand or care enough to give me help. That's fine, I hate this word anyways. Now that I have no hope left, at least I won't have any regrets if I happen to "leave" this place
(But actually I feel terrible and just want to cry all day in my room rn but can't even do that since I'm forced to go to school and learn basically nothing)
13-15, F
