hate hate hate

im a terrible person,i hate myself so much but i have the audacity to be upset abt something,im horrible
i hate my body,my face,my traits everything abt me
i hate how envious i am of my friends and how much i wish for their downfall just bcs they're naturally pretty,smart and has a complete family
i hate how audacious i am,i still seek for their comfort despite being so terrible to them
i hate how much of an idiot i am,how i fail to do every single task that is given to me
i hate how vulnerable and dependent i am even though i have no one
i hate how delusional i am to the point that i actually think i can still be loved despite being so awful
i hate how i still manage to love myself despite being like this,i hate it so much,i hate it thaf i cant even punish myself for it,im so selfish and terrible
i hate how much im disappointing my family by not getting good enough grades and being ugly
i hate my mindset and js everything abt me
i hate how im writing all of my weakness right now,right here just bcs i have no one
im so unlovable,but i probably deserve it