I Am Upset
I feel horrified right now. I think that is the best word to describe it. Horrified. I have not spoken up about things going on at all because I have been speechless. What could I possibly say?
I am HORRIFIED at the crimes being committed against black Americans and other POC in this country every single day. I am HORRIFIED at the way the police have been handling the protests, the way the government has been handling the protests. Horrified at the countless stories of corruption coming forth about various police units. My feed on every social media is inundated with abhorrent, inhumane cruelty after cruelty.
I feel ashamed that I am over here sitting in my little suburban bubble. I feel ashamed that I am not doing more. I am over here drowning in my own little world of mundane issues and mental health drama while the world is going up in flames around me. And what am I doing about it? Nothing.
I feel absolutely useless. First the pandemic going on, then the IDIOTIC response to the pandemic with folks preferring to listen to politics over experts when it comes to the lives of themselves and others. And even just being so damn inconsiderate as to not give a shit about the lives of others. (All you have to do to save a life, or at least spare someone a crippling hospital stay and expenses and potentially permanent disability, is to wear a mask for a brief period of time while you're out in public and you can't even do that? Amazing. Truly speaking to the compassion of humanity.) And now all of this. All of this that has been going on for so long and is now going through another huge explosion while I cower and hide in my little bunker of privilege while I cross my fingers and hope it passes and we come out the other side without an all-out civil war or some sort of race war at the least.
I am at a loss. I have no words. I am deeply ashamed of my paralysis and total inability to do literally anything.
I am HORRIFIED at the crimes being committed against black Americans and other POC in this country every single day. I am HORRIFIED at the way the police have been handling the protests, the way the government has been handling the protests. Horrified at the countless stories of corruption coming forth about various police units. My feed on every social media is inundated with abhorrent, inhumane cruelty after cruelty.
I feel ashamed that I am over here sitting in my little suburban bubble. I feel ashamed that I am not doing more. I am over here drowning in my own little world of mundane issues and mental health drama while the world is going up in flames around me. And what am I doing about it? Nothing.
I feel absolutely useless. First the pandemic going on, then the IDIOTIC response to the pandemic with folks preferring to listen to politics over experts when it comes to the lives of themselves and others. And even just being so damn inconsiderate as to not give a shit about the lives of others. (All you have to do to save a life, or at least spare someone a crippling hospital stay and expenses and potentially permanent disability, is to wear a mask for a brief period of time while you're out in public and you can't even do that? Amazing. Truly speaking to the compassion of humanity.) And now all of this. All of this that has been going on for so long and is now going through another huge explosion while I cower and hide in my little bunker of privilege while I cross my fingers and hope it passes and we come out the other side without an all-out civil war or some sort of race war at the least.
I am at a loss. I have no words. I am deeply ashamed of my paralysis and total inability to do literally anything.
