I Am Upset

I went jogging for 30 min which felt good last night. I was thinking that I enjoyed the park I was jogging in. Maybe I would jog here for decades to come. Then I thought, when my brother came back from abroad decades later he might say that parks in his country were so much bigger and natural and that park near my home was purely shit. I felt upset thinking about this, something that might not even happen at all. Once again I felt helpless staying in a place I don't like, and questioned myself why i was staying here. Yes there are reasons, because I don't want to take risk. No matter how I try to comfort myself I can't change my mood and thoughts.

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novembermoon · 51-55

Understand this. But what matters is that you felt good doing the run. That should be a moment to cherish. The place may not be the best in terms of natural beauty (especially when we have seen such great beauty elsewhere), but that moment of enjoyment should be seen in itself, and not in comparison to others. I am also learning little by little. Hope this helps a bit.