I'm feeling all kind of self hatred right now

I feel so disappointed in myself because, even though I try to do my best... I always relapse.

And right now I'm incredibly stressed about everything going on in my life that I'm barely able to do anything... which adds to the stress and disappointment.

I tried to distract myself but my brain is on fire, so loud it makes my body recoil.

I am even ashamed to admit this because people go through worse things. But my brain wasn't able to stay still for the past few hours so I decided to write it.
I apologize for the negative energy.

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PerfectionOfTheHeart · 46-50, F

Never apologize for doing what you feel you need to to get to the next breath.

You may need a hard break from Life right now. A break that’ll help ease your mind and slow it down a little.

For some people it’s immersing themselves in nature to reset the mechanism, but everyone has their own palette cleanser to help take them out of their own head and shift focus to something else that can generate more light for them.

Whatever that is for you, lean into it and allow yourself to sit in it for a bit with no distractions and no pulls from the outside world.

Feel the air come into your lungs, and as you release your breath envision your concerns attached to each intentional exhale. Slow. Deep. Consistent exhales.

Let yourself take note of how your muscles begin to relax as you mind becomes lighter, and commend yourself for choosing peace over chaos.

It’s not a cure-all by any means, but it helps in the now that can feel so hard to just get through.

AoNoSora

@PerfectionOfTheHeart Nature is good. I never thought of it because I'm always overwhelmed.
I will try it.
Thank your for your time to write this message.

PerfectionOfTheHeart · 46-50, F

@AoNoSora My pleasure. Take care of yourself.