Some days I want to be dead, some days I want to be alive. Why am I flipping?

@awildsheepschase yes. I had bad trauma in my life. It is not something I’m going to get over. It’s burned into my soul now 😢

@beautifulx0sensational Where it should be, remember that as much as you want to push away, it's your heart missing them

@awildsheepschase I don’t miss anyone. This is t about a guy or small stuff. I was abused by a monster

@beautifulx0sensational So something was taken from you. You trusted someone and then they broke you.... it's not small stuff being abused

@awildsheepschase they lied and deceived me. They made me think a tragedy happened and I had blood on my hands. They made it feel so real! Then I found out they are a mentally ill gaslighting narcissist filled with anger and hate

@beautifulx0sensational All I can say then is you don't need them in your life. But there is always the lingering question what did I do to deserve this and why should I put up with this? Which comes to a conclusion I think you know, you shouldn't. Remember that part, you shoudn't accept someone who makes you feel that way. It's still so easy to miss them and want them in your life where you had them. 💔