Agoraphobic?

Been feeling increasingly agoraphobic today and don't know why. That's not like me. I've been pushing myself to go out today more than I had planned because of it. But all I feel is like I'm walking a thin line between barely manageable stress and anxiety and a panic attack. I just got back from walking down to the store and back just to pick up some mangos as an excuse to try to make me confront whatever is going on in my head. But all I feel is relief to be back home. I just want to turn the AC on and wrap myself in multiple blankets and put my head between my knees and breathe until I feel calm again or punch and kick the shit out of a punching bag until I'm exhausted and not leave my apartment until work tomorrow. I hate this what the fuck is wrong with me today?!?!. :/

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KiwiDan · 31-35, M

🤗 oh no! Are you feeling any better now?

shakemeup · 36-40

@KiwiDan I feel like crap, but I'm doing much better maybe because I'm at home in my apartment. :/

🤗 I'll feel better by tomorrow I'm sure.

KiwiDan · 31-35, M

@shakemeup you must. The babies need you 🤗

shakemeup · 36-40

@KiwiDan That's not a problem, I have no fears about tomorrow. It'll just be another day at work. Things I've done a million times before. Then it's just accomplishing the things highest on my priority list and then going to bed and starting over the next day. I don't have time to worry, only time for getting stuff done. lol

😆btw, I dare you to call them babies to their faces. They'd be so mad at you.
Thanks that made me smile. 😄

KiwiDan · 31-35, M

@shakemeup they may be mad, but they're still your babies to me 🥰

Spunds like you're frustrated and anxious about being behind where you think you should be? You'll get it all done eventually 🤗

shakemeup · 36-40

@KiwiDan I will. it just feels like too much sometimes. There's so much to do. I feel like I'm running on treadmill and expecting to go somewhere. But you're only running fast enough to stay in place, And then I'm also worried about all kinds of changes happening and worried about that too.
And the extra that comes with that.

Guess I'm starting to feel a little burned out, and then guilty and hate myself when I do take time for myself. I'll figure out how to balance things out and just do the best I can.

🤗

KiwiDan · 31-35, M

@shakemeup I can't do much to help that, but have infinite hugs instead 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗