Doing nothing all day everyday is not living

I know anyone would trade places but when others are doing something or doing well financially, it put pressure on me, I’m 40 I know I’ve done well in life but I don’t know that because I’m not allowed to know about it for some reason, and I’ve won awards but can’t remember, and I know I have a lot of money that I worked hard for, but I don’t know where it is, but need to do something with my life, and laying on the couch is not one of them