Mr. Nobody - A Tale - A Dream
As I begin my digital journey, I think about writing my biggest, greatest thing as my first entry only for it to become one of the most jumbled and messy essays. It then dissuades me. Forgetting I ever created an account just to try and share my "midnight, sleep-deprived, depression fueled" thoughts. As my first entry, I'd like to fill it with a singular thought. If I had the chance to go back in time and start over at a moment of my choosing, I'd rather pass on the opportunity.
I've lived a great and wonderful life. If I was sent back in time to re-live it all, the good and the bad. I feel I would find myself predicting the future so often that, it just wouldn't be pleasant. All the positive and negative outcomes would either become boring or depressing.
I had a dream I was thrown back in time. Time started feeling eternal. This block universe began showing me images that I found depressing. I was living in the present, but also the past. This made things a lot worse. While I was thrown all the way back to when I was with my ex, it meant I was able to predict all of the negative moments that were going to happen. No matter how hard I tried to avoid them, they happened nonetheless. I began living in those moments again. It made it ten times worse because I knew it was going to happen and when it is negative it just makes you feel bad and there were very little positive memories.
The story continues. It began to feel like there were multiples of me living in different moments in time that were able to think as one. While living in the present, I was going through my past experiences. I was being mistreated by my ex and I couldn't avoid it. There was nowhere to run. I tried to change it but that didn't work. There were times where I tried avoiding something because I already knew it was a negative memory only to have it happen right in front of me without being able to do anything.
I hope I will be back. Not back in the dream, mind you, but back here, writing more. Sharing more thoughts. We live in a constantly moving universe that moves at a pace only we know. With the advancements in technology and the changes we've seen even over the last decade, privacy is a myth, life is fleeting, no matter what you think and what you feel. Live your life to the fullest. Be fulfilled, push yourself, effort is your ally.
I've lived a great and wonderful life. If I was sent back in time to re-live it all, the good and the bad. I feel I would find myself predicting the future so often that, it just wouldn't be pleasant. All the positive and negative outcomes would either become boring or depressing.
I had a dream I was thrown back in time. Time started feeling eternal. This block universe began showing me images that I found depressing. I was living in the present, but also the past. This made things a lot worse. While I was thrown all the way back to when I was with my ex, it meant I was able to predict all of the negative moments that were going to happen. No matter how hard I tried to avoid them, they happened nonetheless. I began living in those moments again. It made it ten times worse because I knew it was going to happen and when it is negative it just makes you feel bad and there were very little positive memories.
The story continues. It began to feel like there were multiples of me living in different moments in time that were able to think as one. While living in the present, I was going through my past experiences. I was being mistreated by my ex and I couldn't avoid it. There was nowhere to run. I tried to change it but that didn't work. There were times where I tried avoiding something because I already knew it was a negative memory only to have it happen right in front of me without being able to do anything.
I hope I will be back. Not back in the dream, mind you, but back here, writing more. Sharing more thoughts. We live in a constantly moving universe that moves at a pace only we know. With the advancements in technology and the changes we've seen even over the last decade, privacy is a myth, life is fleeting, no matter what you think and what you feel. Live your life to the fullest. Be fulfilled, push yourself, effort is your ally.
