I wish I could just stop time and have a good type of groundhog day until I felt ready to resume living.

Then maybe I could catch up on life. First of all I would party and have fun until I felt satisfied. Then I would study everything I need to study for this year. I would figure out what I wanted to do with my life and how to accomplish it. I make a crapton of art. And then I would resume.

But instead, my life just keeps getting pushed deeper down into the mud while I am trying to do all of those things.