I Want to Live Life to the Fullest
Brilliant hot sun lifted into the sky. It was one of the purest and most magical things he knew of. The air was cool. In fact it was quite crisp.
He stood for a moment, stretchng into the sunrise until it transitioned and became part of his energy system.He breathed, straightened to the sky and for a moment was aware of everything and nothing. It was an instant of absolute consciousness.
And yet….
It was just a moment….. He wondered what it would be like to be in that moment for an eternity, simply open and aware to the none limits of time and space, extending oneself to the far reaches, knowing no boundaries.
Sadly though life was full of limitations. Almost every moment of bliss was just that - a moment.
Moments do make memories and he was so grateful he had made many memories of many moments. Each memory made up the conglomerate now and one could step into that beautiful memoir and feeling the agony or the ecstasy as if it were in fact in the present.
While he knew himself to be physically alone memories kept him company. Love was there deeply ingrained in his psyche, true and passionate episodes that fueled the beauty of life. He remembered the magic of her touch and the untamed passion of her personality. She was with him, integral to his essential self just as he hoped he was to her.
Skin on skin….silken secrets revealed….pure tangibility unleashed …
Reluctantly he drew himself away from the tantalizing power of her presence. She had believed in him and this belief started the motivation to believe in his own self. She had really seen inside him in a way few ever had or ever would.
The truth was though that if you do not believe in yourself then everything will fall flat. There is no one out there who will do it for you. You need to do it yourself.
He poured coffee beans into the bur grinder and pushed the button. With a grumble the grinder did its thing and coffee grinds filled a little jar at the base of the machine. He poured the water and the aroma of brewing coffee filled the kitchen, deep, strong and lifegiving.
If he could go back and change things he would. He missed her. She was as much him as he was her. Yet thinking, feeling and understanding the wisdom he knew he had not been ready for her. His evolution was behind hers She was so incredibly more than he found himself to be at that time. It was the beginning of a certain realization for him and within him.
Taking his coffee into the sunrise he sat and contemplated the past. Reality he knew was how we thought and how we as individuals manifest reality to be. For instance, some people found long distance relationships supportable. He found them totally ridiculous. A relationship for him was sharing and touching and loving in the flesh. If you could not do this then it was but unreal. For otthers though it became their reality and what they wanted it to be for them. The same could be said for any belief system or social structure.
So, if there is belief that a given individual is unhappy is it not true to say they most certainly will be unhappy. He sipped the coffee and the true dark espresso blend trembled through him almost as orgasmic as an orgasm itself. His mind soared. His whole body seemed to breathe into the moment and elevate towards a utopia.
Of course unhappiness has certain circumstances attached to it. This goes without saying. People are unhappy because something makes them this way. If people turn this around and focus on what does make them happy then a given perso has true power to alter that emotional output to a vastly positive one. This is the soul happiness. This is the absolute beauty within the self to shine just as the sun shines.
Importantly, no one can do this for you. One has to reach deep inside and do it themselves….realize their own realities.
He laughed.
He still missed her. Little would alter that but he knew every experience was a stepping stone towards creating the whole soulful entity. Each magic moment making momentum towards a beautiful montage.
He stood for a moment, stretchng into the sunrise until it transitioned and became part of his energy system.He breathed, straightened to the sky and for a moment was aware of everything and nothing. It was an instant of absolute consciousness.
And yet….
It was just a moment….. He wondered what it would be like to be in that moment for an eternity, simply open and aware to the none limits of time and space, extending oneself to the far reaches, knowing no boundaries.
Sadly though life was full of limitations. Almost every moment of bliss was just that - a moment.
Moments do make memories and he was so grateful he had made many memories of many moments. Each memory made up the conglomerate now and one could step into that beautiful memoir and feeling the agony or the ecstasy as if it were in fact in the present.
While he knew himself to be physically alone memories kept him company. Love was there deeply ingrained in his psyche, true and passionate episodes that fueled the beauty of life. He remembered the magic of her touch and the untamed passion of her personality. She was with him, integral to his essential self just as he hoped he was to her.
Skin on skin….silken secrets revealed….pure tangibility unleashed …
Reluctantly he drew himself away from the tantalizing power of her presence. She had believed in him and this belief started the motivation to believe in his own self. She had really seen inside him in a way few ever had or ever would.
The truth was though that if you do not believe in yourself then everything will fall flat. There is no one out there who will do it for you. You need to do it yourself.
He poured coffee beans into the bur grinder and pushed the button. With a grumble the grinder did its thing and coffee grinds filled a little jar at the base of the machine. He poured the water and the aroma of brewing coffee filled the kitchen, deep, strong and lifegiving.
If he could go back and change things he would. He missed her. She was as much him as he was her. Yet thinking, feeling and understanding the wisdom he knew he had not been ready for her. His evolution was behind hers She was so incredibly more than he found himself to be at that time. It was the beginning of a certain realization for him and within him.
Taking his coffee into the sunrise he sat and contemplated the past. Reality he knew was how we thought and how we as individuals manifest reality to be. For instance, some people found long distance relationships supportable. He found them totally ridiculous. A relationship for him was sharing and touching and loving in the flesh. If you could not do this then it was but unreal. For otthers though it became their reality and what they wanted it to be for them. The same could be said for any belief system or social structure.
So, if there is belief that a given individual is unhappy is it not true to say they most certainly will be unhappy. He sipped the coffee and the true dark espresso blend trembled through him almost as orgasmic as an orgasm itself. His mind soared. His whole body seemed to breathe into the moment and elevate towards a utopia.
Of course unhappiness has certain circumstances attached to it. This goes without saying. People are unhappy because something makes them this way. If people turn this around and focus on what does make them happy then a given perso has true power to alter that emotional output to a vastly positive one. This is the soul happiness. This is the absolute beauty within the self to shine just as the sun shines.
Importantly, no one can do this for you. One has to reach deep inside and do it themselves….realize their own realities.
He laughed.
He still missed her. Little would alter that but he knew every experience was a stepping stone towards creating the whole soulful entity. Each magic moment making momentum towards a beautiful montage.
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