I Hate My Life
For many years starting throughout my early to late twenties and early thirties like now, Hindu Sikh head of household from India who poses as my Mother, but shares absolutely no blood with me had her Russian boyfriend and their Hindu girlfriends from India sit on my face without panties on sexually as to benefit from me to a climax point while I was having seizures because head of household lied and said that I was a product of a Black man raping her.
I've become so accustomed to living this lifestyle and prior to being used as a sexual object, I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder because head of household's Russian boyfriend's family drugged me both in my food and intravenously while I was having seizures. Another thing they would do is yell into my ears while I was having seizures and I would hear their voices play back during the day, nonstop, all day long, and it would send me into a state of insanity to a point where I didn't even graduate from a real high school nor did I finish my community college education.
Anyhow, at around twenty four years old, I began fantasizing about having sex with females because that was all I ever saw while I was having seizures and I was also molested by men when I was a child (both of head of household's Caucasian boyfriend's, - and the Russian boyfriend's entire family of Psychopaths over her lie on how I was a product of a Black man raping her). I became so desperate, because I felt also that men hated me, being that because of head of household and her Russian boyfriend's family I was on seven to eight different pills of antipsychotics a night and her Russian boyfriend's family drugged me daily with heavy doses of steroids which not only stunted my growth, made me grow facial hair to this day that I have to shave, and made me look ugly, but it made me more masculine (testosterone build up). I started to go on sites to hook up with females and I wanted to pay a female to eat her out because this was the only life I knew and I was two hundred and fifty pounds and the only life I knew because of this Russian family of Psychopaths was a pussy in my face and I thought it was RIGHT. So I had fantasies of getting a girlfriend offline, a really pretty, sexy one, with a beautiful face and body, and paying her large amounts of money to eat her pussy and show her the better life because it turned me on and I felt like I was a man, but I backed away because I felt like I didn't know who I could've been dealing with. Around that time, head of household's Russian boyfriend's family already brought two young Hindu females in from India who were completely naked and one of them sat on my face and rode me so hard she broke cum on me and slid off me and the other one had her Russian man push my face into her pulsating pussy while I was on my stomach having seizures, she was completely naked, both of them were.
If you ask me if I ever got laid, no, I never got laid because men said I was too ugly...all my life that's all they ever told me and I got fat since I was sixteen and admitted to the psych ward. I'm thirty three going on thirty four right now and nobody still doesn't want me because I'm so ugly and fat and I grow a beard every day that I have to shave, my growth is all stunted and I'm a home health aide and I still get sexually abused and drugged by head of household's Russian boyfriend's family, they won't give up.
I've become so accustomed to living this lifestyle and prior to being used as a sexual object, I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder because head of household's Russian boyfriend's family drugged me both in my food and intravenously while I was having seizures. Another thing they would do is yell into my ears while I was having seizures and I would hear their voices play back during the day, nonstop, all day long, and it would send me into a state of insanity to a point where I didn't even graduate from a real high school nor did I finish my community college education.
Anyhow, at around twenty four years old, I began fantasizing about having sex with females because that was all I ever saw while I was having seizures and I was also molested by men when I was a child (both of head of household's Caucasian boyfriend's, - and the Russian boyfriend's entire family of Psychopaths over her lie on how I was a product of a Black man raping her). I became so desperate, because I felt also that men hated me, being that because of head of household and her Russian boyfriend's family I was on seven to eight different pills of antipsychotics a night and her Russian boyfriend's family drugged me daily with heavy doses of steroids which not only stunted my growth, made me grow facial hair to this day that I have to shave, and made me look ugly, but it made me more masculine (testosterone build up). I started to go on sites to hook up with females and I wanted to pay a female to eat her out because this was the only life I knew and I was two hundred and fifty pounds and the only life I knew because of this Russian family of Psychopaths was a pussy in my face and I thought it was RIGHT. So I had fantasies of getting a girlfriend offline, a really pretty, sexy one, with a beautiful face and body, and paying her large amounts of money to eat her pussy and show her the better life because it turned me on and I felt like I was a man, but I backed away because I felt like I didn't know who I could've been dealing with. Around that time, head of household's Russian boyfriend's family already brought two young Hindu females in from India who were completely naked and one of them sat on my face and rode me so hard she broke cum on me and slid off me and the other one had her Russian man push my face into her pulsating pussy while I was on my stomach having seizures, she was completely naked, both of them were.
If you ask me if I ever got laid, no, I never got laid because men said I was too ugly...all my life that's all they ever told me and I got fat since I was sixteen and admitted to the psych ward. I'm thirty three going on thirty four right now and nobody still doesn't want me because I'm so ugly and fat and I grow a beard every day that I have to shave, my growth is all stunted and I'm a home health aide and I still get sexually abused and drugged by head of household's Russian boyfriend's family, they won't give up.