Disappointed in myself

As someone who is familiar with the Christian faith, I asked God to remove this person from my life if he was not the one for me. I have said this prayer before, and God has always removed that person, but this time he didn’t. I went against my morals. I gave myself up to this person, and now I regret it. There were many times where my conscience was telling me to let this person go, and I didn’t listen. There were two occasions where he told me why he wouldn’t date me. One, was because I was boring. At the time I was currently in school and I had no money so it was hard for us to hang out. When he wanted to hang out, he would always want to go to bars and clubs, and that just wasn’t my thing. we did go out to eat a lot only because I hate to cook. At one point he got really upset with me because I wouldn’t cook for him. Two, he basically told me that he wasn’t attracted to me. He told me he wouldn’t date me because I didn’t dress up enough and then I need to put on a little make up. Then he told me that I was too good for him and I should’ve listened. In the end, all I am left with is disappointment and embarrassment. I told my therapist a few months ago that if this relationship didn’t work out for the better that I would take full responsibility of what happened. I was lied to, I was used. I will never forget the amount of shame I’ve felt in the last few months. What makes this so sad is he was the only one that I could consider a friend. I have no one here with me in the city. My sister and my brother moved out of the state. My parents live an hour away. I feel so alone.