I'm so disappointed of myself

IM SO TIRED ITS BEEN 4 DAYS SINCE I STARTED TO WORK AND NOW I DON'T WANT TO WORK ANYMORE. I FEEL PRESSURED ABOUT THE TIME I DON'T WANT TO BE LATE NOR TO BE EARLY,IF YOU'RE LATE YOU CAN'T COME IN , ON THE OTHER HAND IF YOU'RE TOO EARLY YOU'LL WORK EARLY. I CAN'T EVEN HAVE A "ME" TIME JUST LIKE BEFORE I BADLY NEED IT COZ IT'S THE THERAPY I CAN AFFORD FOR NOW(⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) I REALLY EXHAUSTED MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY BUT I DON'T HAVE ANY OTHER CHOICES BUT TO WORK SINCE I DIDN'T HAVE A CHANCE TO GO TO SCHOOL THIS YEAR THAT'S WHY I'M WORKING. I'M JUST FORCING MYSELF TO WORK BUT TO BE HONEST I DON'T WANT TO WORK I JUST WANT TO LEARN IN SCHOOL AND THEN GRADUATE AND AFTER THAT I'LL BE WORKING MY DREAM JOB I'M REALLY DISAPPOINTED OF MYSELF I WISH I COULD TURN BACK THE TIME AND JUST TAKE THE EXAM OR MAYBE I DID NOT COMEBACK HERE(⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) EVERYDAY IS GETTING WORST