I don't even know anymore.

In all honesty, I have no idea what lies in wait. There once was a friend of mine, but I messed up with him. I want to make it better, but I'm not sure how to start. He probably forgot about me, and I'm sure being forgotten by someone hurts a lot. Ferociously debating pointless issues. Because of this, our relationship was basically destroyed. I continue to talk to my good friend about him. He and I only spoke yesterday, which was the only time we exchanged messages. Between us, there is so much animosity. He is aware of my jokes with him, he still takes them seriously. I just hated how he was okay with telling other people about our problems with each other, he never listens, a liar. He makes excuses. I wish things didn't have to go the way they did.