I’ve tried to write a goodbye post to my friend but I have been deleted and rewriting and deleting and trying but haven’t been able to .. please be patient …
There has not one day that didn’t pass without talking to you. Some days 1000 messages back and forth between us Now nothing And that last conversation… the texts that follow the news of you gone…
If I knew If I thought This was never supposed to happen We should have more time to prepare
I know your pain is over I know your discomfort has ended I know you’re at peace But I am not
Not having my friend My best friend around It’s cruel It’s painful It hurts
You were my friend You were someone I did not have to censor myself You were never someone I had to give the im fine line And you’re gone
I’ve had to say goodbye to people I love before This isn’t new to me. This was my biggest fear in letting you in But letting you in opened me up to love you and get to know you and for that I’ll cherish forever
You were my best friend. I miss you every second of everyday. And even on this day filled with so much love and smiles and with my kids. I want to reach for my phone and tell you about it but you’re not there to hear it.
Oh hon, he felt the same way about you. I really hope you know that. He cared about you so much, and he loved you dearly. You truly meant something to him. I don't know why he was taken from us so soon. I don't know why life had to be so fucking cruel sometimes. It hurts, and it isn't fair. None of this is fair. I know I'm not him, and I know I don't know you the way he did, but please know that I'm here for you. Always. If you want me to be. Thank you for being a true friend to him. Thank you for being someone he could open up to, someone he trusted enough to share his struggles with, and someone who didn't judge him for them. That meant more to him than I think you will ever truly understand. Life was so cruel to him sometimes, and he deserved so much better. He carried so much pain, yet somehow he still found ways to smile, to laugh, and to make connections with people. He genuinely loved talking to people on here, but there were some people who held an especially important place in his heart. You were one of them. I can never thank you enough for being there for him. For listening to him. For caring about him. For giving him a safe place to be himself when he needed someone. I know he's gone, and I hate even having to say those words. But I hope you never doubt how much you meant to him. Because you did. You really, truly did. Thank you for loving my my husband. Thank you for being his friend. And thank you for giving him something in this life that he so desperately deserved—a person he could trust and know he wasn't alone with.
i miss my friend too.. we had like 2k messages.. sigh
. i still write to him even tho he's not here
ah well such is life.. appreciate people while they are still alive that's all
i'm sorry for cigarguy and his family that he is gone .. he was a great pillar of support to them an icon of good fatherhood both devoted and caring.. they are suffering a great loss right now
@GoFish I missed half the convo my bad. Im so sorry for your loss of your friend. It really does suck. I’ve a bunch of unsent messages I’ve written and im sure the message will just keep growing it sucks to lose the people we love too soon
