How to get over a fictional characters death?
So I'm back venting once again. The title of this post is stupid. Yeah i know how do you even get sad over a fictional character?
Because they have resemblance in me. I used to like spider lilies but i didn't give it much thought. They have grey eyes just like me. They are depressed too. It feels like i found myself. Just to know they died in the game's story. I played it when it got released. I enjoyed interacting with them getting to know more about that character. They we're so well done. Just for their life to be blown away like a candle flame. It has been 2 days going to 3 now. Before all this update that came i prepared myself to get the character so i can play as them and enjoy their gameplay. I made a red spider lilly out of paper as if to give them it. And for luck. One of my friends told me i should give it away later. But to who. I don't want to wish someone death with it. It might aswell take their life if I'm unlucky. Well back to the point. Since i started to adore that character I didn't develope love feelings. But i developed friendship. That character could make jokes could make beautiful music. And i just wanted to be with them. I saw myself in so many ways. I would crack jokes sometimes. Humm myself some melodies. Just as the character. Now I'm broken back to depressive situation. I want to die just like they died. It's stupid to die over a character but i don't think I'll get out of this sadness. It hurts like a lost a friend. I have lost other people before and it's similar to this feeling. People say that that character deserved death since they we're so depressed and they got the ending they longed for. I wish the creators didn't kill them. I wished they found new hope. I wished they would live even if it hurts to remember maybe just maybe start over like they said. But they didn't. I need to get out of this mess. I also drew a red spider lilly today. Since i just couldn't do anything else. My distractions don't help either. I force myself to eat so I won't be hungry. But the sweet sugary stuff don't help anymore. I used to love sugary stuff. Now they just taste blandly sweet. Is this a sign of death? I kinda wish it is. Now I'm even talking like the character. I need help before i do something bad to myself.
Because they have resemblance in me. I used to like spider lilies but i didn't give it much thought. They have grey eyes just like me. They are depressed too. It feels like i found myself. Just to know they died in the game's story. I played it when it got released. I enjoyed interacting with them getting to know more about that character. They we're so well done. Just for their life to be blown away like a candle flame. It has been 2 days going to 3 now. Before all this update that came i prepared myself to get the character so i can play as them and enjoy their gameplay. I made a red spider lilly out of paper as if to give them it. And for luck. One of my friends told me i should give it away later. But to who. I don't want to wish someone death with it. It might aswell take their life if I'm unlucky. Well back to the point. Since i started to adore that character I didn't develope love feelings. But i developed friendship. That character could make jokes could make beautiful music. And i just wanted to be with them. I saw myself in so many ways. I would crack jokes sometimes. Humm myself some melodies. Just as the character. Now I'm broken back to depressive situation. I want to die just like they died. It's stupid to die over a character but i don't think I'll get out of this sadness. It hurts like a lost a friend. I have lost other people before and it's similar to this feeling. People say that that character deserved death since they we're so depressed and they got the ending they longed for. I wish the creators didn't kill them. I wished they found new hope. I wished they would live even if it hurts to remember maybe just maybe start over like they said. But they didn't. I need to get out of this mess. I also drew a red spider lilly today. Since i just couldn't do anything else. My distractions don't help either. I force myself to eat so I won't be hungry. But the sweet sugary stuff don't help anymore. I used to love sugary stuff. Now they just taste blandly sweet. Is this a sign of death? I kinda wish it is. Now I'm even talking like the character. I need help before i do something bad to myself.
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