Too many goodbyes

I've lost 4 people in the last 2 weeks. 2 of which were my best friends still in the prime of life. My heart is so broken I just feel numb, this year has dealt me so many hard times and so much pain. My circle was very small to begin with and now it feels non existent. I'm on my 3rd funeral in a week tomorrow and a 4th one likely to land new year week 😔