I Think About Death and Dying

My gorgeous athletic brilliant talented son Kevin Lee Harris actually died on March 20th of a fentanyl overdose at a house in Merced, 15 days after his 19th birthday. He had gotten addicted to percocet/oxycodone/rococet the previous summer, probably in June, according to his girlfriend. He had had a nearly fatal overdose after taking 4 street percocet or roxies along with lean on 12 15 2020 but had been rescued then. This tragedy is more than I can endure. Am now left with pain, regret, guilt, loss, remorse, and grief for the rest of my life. A number of other family members and his gf are as well.