I Don't Fear Death

I fear not feeling alive. There is a tremendous difference between being alive and feeling alive. Having been involved in an on going battle with depression since my mid to late teens, I feel as though I don't truly feel alive as often as I should. as a result I find my self involved with people whose motives in life are, questionably, moral. It's fun to rip off people who have built empires on the backs of the good people that they have ripped off. I don't fear death. I fear life after death, if there is such a thing. I worry God may not approve of my hobbies.