I Think About Death and Dying

The past few years I've thought about a will, a proxy, having that "talk" of what my wishes are when I pass on, what they definitely aren't lol Who gets what stuff I have....I have no money, though I'm on disability so one of my children might receive something or nothing, not sure how that works. I'm more talking about my belongings, which are not worth much if any money either. Just stuff I like. So, I sit here this morning, after learning some more things about my current health, wondering, WHO I can count on to take care of what needs to be, when THAT TIME comes. Who is responsible enough to handle it. My son's lifestyle tells me it's not him, although he's the oldest. My daughter, well her life isn't really together either, yet she is the more responsible one, not flighty, although I also feel she would still need another adult to help her through things, financially & emotionally... I have NO other family whatsoever. I'm in a relationship, however, my experience has been, relationships don't last, so how can I assign them as a proxy or expect/count on them to be there? And regardless WHO, will my wishes really be carried out? I need to know I can count on that with no doubts whatsoever!

So, some things health wise have come up now and I'm feeling the pressure to make some of my own decisions. I need to have THAT TALK with my daughter(decided that's where I will have to start). How on earth does one have that talk? How to even begin that kind of a conversation, face to face, heart to heart.

The nice thing is, I'm not afraid of dying in itself. I'm afraid of not being here for my kids and what would happen to my furkids also.