I Am Dying A Slow Death From Lonliness And Despair

I'm so tired of pretending I'm not miserable every day. I'm tired of trying desperately to find things to distract myself from the fact that I have no friends, no job, no family, no purpose. i think being dead would be better than this...this constantly feeling of drowning, like I'm lost. I just want to find a place where I can be treated like a human.